I just want to be left alone…for two minutes…

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I’m always thinking of a new blog post.  Some go in and out of my head in 5 minutes, but others stick around.  With Mother’s Day right around the corner, this topic keeps popping up.  This morning it really came up again.  I don’t know about the rest of you but I do my best thinking in the shower.  I always thought they need to come up with some kind of white board that works in the shower…but then it needs to somehow magically transfer those ideas that I write on there to my cell phone/email which is where I keep a lot of my “To Dos”.  That’s too technical for me, but there is your next million dollar idea for Shark Tank.

I digress.

Anyway, so I’m about halfway through my shower this morning and M comes in to tell me her nose is running and she needs a Kleenex.  Really?  I’m in the shower.  Her father was 5 feet from her.  And she had to come ask me?  So I kindly told her, “M, I’m in the shower…please go ask Daddy.”  “Otay Mommy…” And no I didn’t spell “Okay” wrong.  That’s how she says it.  Too cute.  Part of me wants to keep her saying words these cute ways forever.

It got me thinking.  I work in media and last year right before Mother’s day, one of my co-workers came around and asked the Moms what they wanted for Mother’s Day.  99% of us said a nice small gift but then to leave us alone.  It’s true.  That’s what I want again.  I’m okay with even a nice breakfast and then to be left alone.  From pretty much the time that I wake up to the time I go to bed, I’m rarely “alone” and doing things I want to do.  From home to work and back home again, there is little time as a mother and wife that I have time do something I want to do and don’t feel obligated to do, even for two minutes.  Another one of M’s phrases right now is “two minutes” …”Just two more minutes Mommy”.

With that said, when I do get those rare two minutes alone I miss M or Dan…or just feel weird because I’m not doing something productive.  I don’t relax easily. So, if I get time alone I don’t want them to go tooooo far.    🙂

Even if you aren’t a mom or a wife…I hope all you ladies get left alone sometime soon…if only for two minutes…

Stress? What Stress? There is no such thing as stress in my life!?!?

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I write this title at 11:18pm on a Saturday night while everyone else in this house is sleeping.  Including the dogs.  Dan is in bed early due to a Steeler game tomorrow morning, and I’m hanging out waiting for the fire to die down.  I will go to bed before this post is finished, but at least I will have it started.  So if timing is off as you read it (like if the Steeler season is done), don’t be too confused.  I just can’t stay awake much longer and I have a ton of stuff going on these days that this might drop from priority for a bit…

I failed.  My goal with I started this blog was to blog once a week.  Didn’t happen.  I might have been close in the beginning, but this fall things went down hill.  It’s not that I didn’t WANT to blog once a week, I just ran out of steam and other things had to come first.

I stress (like most females do outwardly, and most men internalize) about everything.  From the small things … no I didn’t come up with an idea for dinner AGAIN until on my way home … to financial, to am I raising my daughter right? To am I doing my job to the best of my ability?  Through all of this I take almost no time to myself.  Unless you count perusing Facebook before I fall asleep most nights.  To be honest I haven’t even had time for that the past few months, so sorry if I missed your birthday or wedding/food/vacation/kid/pet pics. 😦 September and October are two of Dan’s busiest months at work which leaves me to keep the house and M in order more than normal.  In October, my busy time kicks in and I start bringing home work with me almost every night.  Which entails being on the computer most nights for a few hours after M is in bed.  The only reason I do that is to semi keep the stress down the following day at work.  It stinks, but must be done…It’s self preservation.

With all this said, I deal.  Sometimes by screaming and yelling, and sometimes by crying, and sometimes by just keeping moving.

I read my timehop this other day and one of my previous Facebook posts said “This week is one of the most exhausting and exhilarating weeks of the whole year for me at my job.” It’s true, and most days I wouldn’t change it,  I would however some days wish I could clone myself both at home and at work, but don’t we all.

One of my favorite quotes lately was “You will never be done”, so true.  So in the meantime, just keep smiling and try to breathe…take that time for yourself, get a massage, have a glass of wine…And don’t forget when it comes to your kiddos and life in general, take time and don’t blink.