I just want to be left alone…for two minutes…

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I’m always thinking of a new blog post.  Some go in and out of my head in 5 minutes, but others stick around.  With Mother’s Day right around the corner, this topic keeps popping up.  This morning it really came up again.  I don’t know about the rest of you but I do my best thinking in the shower.  I always thought they need to come up with some kind of white board that works in the shower…but then it needs to somehow magically transfer those ideas that I write on there to my cell phone/email which is where I keep a lot of my “To Dos”.  That’s too technical for me, but there is your next million dollar idea for Shark Tank.

I digress.

Anyway, so I’m about halfway through my shower this morning and M comes in to tell me her nose is running and she needs a Kleenex.  Really?  I’m in the shower.  Her father was 5 feet from her.  And she had to come ask me?  So I kindly told her, “M, I’m in the shower…please go ask Daddy.”  “Otay Mommy…” And no I didn’t spell “Okay” wrong.  That’s how she says it.  Too cute.  Part of me wants to keep her saying words these cute ways forever.

It got me thinking.  I work in media and last year right before Mother’s day, one of my co-workers came around and asked the Moms what they wanted for Mother’s Day.  99% of us said a nice small gift but then to leave us alone.  It’s true.  That’s what I want again.  I’m okay with even a nice breakfast and then to be left alone.  From pretty much the time that I wake up to the time I go to bed, I’m rarely “alone” and doing things I want to do.  From home to work and back home again, there is little time as a mother and wife that I have time do something I want to do and don’t feel obligated to do, even for two minutes.  Another one of M’s phrases right now is “two minutes” …”Just two more minutes Mommy”.

With that said, when I do get those rare two minutes alone I miss M or Dan…or just feel weird because I’m not doing something productive.  I don’t relax easily. So, if I get time alone I don’t want them to go tooooo far.    🙂

Even if you aren’t a mom or a wife…I hope all you ladies get left alone sometime soon…if only for two minutes…

Happy Mother’s Day!

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No “C”lues, “L”inks this week…just some thoughts that I wanted to get out of my head in honor of Mother’s Day…

Some of you may know that on fall day in November 2012 I gave birth to our beautiful baby girl 5 weeks early. She was a healthy miracle at 6lbs 3ozs. She was everything I had hoped and dreamed of for years. When I was little, I wanted to get married and have a baby…what most little girls dream of. I babysat every chance I got, spent lots of time with my younger cousins (even making my boyfriends at the time take them to movies and to the park with us), and at the time even thought I wanted to be a teacher as well. I loved kids…all ages…well those teenage years are iffy…

What you might not know, when we started trying to have kids; it wasn’t working. We tried everything including two IVF cycles that failed. It was hard, and trying, and pretty much awful. I cried, and stressed, and was depressed. I cried after seeing the infertility doctors, I cried the first time I gave myself the first shot (not from pain, but from relief that I could do it), I cried the mornings that I had a reaction to one of the meds and had to have Dan take me to Magee to make sure the reaction didn’t get worse. I cried a lot. After some exploratory surgery, which to this day I still believe helped fix my issues…I ended up pregnant 5 months later. Our little miracle.

And I knew Motherhood was hard (as was the getting here for me), but it is also rewarding. And everyone tells you it’s hard, and everyone gives you advice. But as a mom you need to take everything you know and everything you have learned and follow your own path. Being a working mother is hard. Being a stay at mom is hard. It’s hard if you have help, it’s hard if you don’t. The nights are hard when she gets up at 1am, the mornings are scary when they sleep through the night for the first time because you panic something is wrong. But I wouldn’t change it for anything in this entire world. As my girlfriend said at lunch this week…Nothing good is easy right???

I’m blessed to have a wonderful husband and family that helps all the time. And I probably don’t thank them as much as I should. To all you Mom’s out there (especially mine!) Happy Mother’s Day. I hope you all have a beautiful day with your families.

On this Mother’s Day as in every other day…I’m blessed to be M’s mommy.

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