No “C”lues, “L”inks this week…just some thoughts that I wanted to get out of my head in honor of Mother’s Day…
Some of you may know that on fall day in November 2012 I gave birth to our beautiful baby girl 5 weeks early. She was a healthy miracle at 6lbs 3ozs. She was everything I had hoped and dreamed of for years. When I was little, I wanted to get married and have a baby…what most little girls dream of. I babysat every chance I got, spent lots of time with my younger cousins (even making my boyfriends at the time take them to movies and to the park with us), and at the time even thought I wanted to be a teacher as well. I loved kids…all ages…well those teenage years are iffy…
What you might not know, when we started trying to have kids; it wasn’t working. We tried everything including two IVF cycles that failed. It was hard, and trying, and pretty much awful. I cried, and stressed, and was depressed. I cried after seeing the infertility doctors, I cried the first time I gave myself the first shot (not from pain, but from relief that I could do it), I cried the mornings that I had a reaction to one of the meds and had to have Dan take me to Magee to make sure the reaction didn’t get worse. I cried a lot. After some exploratory surgery, which to this day I still believe helped fix my issues…I ended up pregnant 5 months later. Our little miracle.
And I knew Motherhood was hard (as was the getting here for me), but it is also rewarding. And everyone tells you it’s hard, and everyone gives you advice. But as a mom you need to take everything you know and everything you have learned and follow your own path. Being a working mother is hard. Being a stay at mom is hard. It’s hard if you have help, it’s hard if you don’t. The nights are hard when she gets up at 1am, the mornings are scary when they sleep through the night for the first time because you panic something is wrong. But I wouldn’t change it for anything in this entire world. As my girlfriend said at lunch this week…Nothing good is easy right???
I’m blessed to have a wonderful husband and family that helps all the time. And I probably don’t thank them as much as I should. To all you Mom’s out there (especially mine!) Happy Mother’s Day. I hope you all have a beautiful day with your families.
On this Mother’s Day as in every other day…I’m blessed to be M’s mommy.






